A lot of things happened just within a year. My life, my feelings, my thoughts, my perspective, and perhaps my belief. I think life is not about being consistent after all but it is more about changing from bad to good, worse to better.
Life is funny, isn't it? Some days it could bring the brightest smile and laugh out of you and some days it could just make you feel so hopeless, so insecure, so not appreciated. There you go, even life is not being well balanced as it seems.
Lately, I've been thinking. Sometimes it might be a good one but, most of the time it is just effortless thinking. So, I figured out I became a less grateful person. I was in a state of a damsel in 'distress'. Not specifically in distress but more like miserably broken inside.
and I realize that is actually the exaggerated feeling coming from myself. From the broken me. I tend to overthink, tend to express myself more than I should. I become more sensitive. Like an idiot, regretting over things that had happened. I can't change the past. I have to embrace it.
As a very private person, I do not like to tell anyone about my feelings or problems but how am I suppose to hide it from Allah? you know I cannot. He knows me too well better than my own.
Whenever you think, there would be a question, whenever there is a question. You seek for answers. So I seek mine. Sometimes you don't even have to seek it because the answer is right in front of you. I'm blessed and grateful to have some friends and family that keep reminding me of Allah.
I think I'm not gonna share in detail here. Whatever it is, I just think I was being less grateful and more selfish but just so you know that whenever you are hopeless, you feel lost, you feel like nothing else seems to work out. You go back to Allah. Do not find it in the entertainment or sort of thing. It never worked.
There is a verse in a Quran that struck deep to my heart. Thanks to the one who shared the picture on Instagram. It is from Surah Yunus verse 12
I feel like this verse is directed to me. I will try to keep reminding myself after this. In sha Allah. Aamiin.
and I realize that is actually the exaggerated feeling coming from myself. From the broken me. I tend to overthink, tend to express myself more than I should. I become more sensitive. Like an idiot, regretting over things that had happened. I can't change the past. I have to embrace it.
As a very private person, I do not like to tell anyone about my feelings or problems but how am I suppose to hide it from Allah? you know I cannot. He knows me too well better than my own.
Whenever you think, there would be a question, whenever there is a question. You seek for answers. So I seek mine. Sometimes you don't even have to seek it because the answer is right in front of you. I'm blessed and grateful to have some friends and family that keep reminding me of Allah.
I think I'm not gonna share in detail here. Whatever it is, I just think I was being less grateful and more selfish but just so you know that whenever you are hopeless, you feel lost, you feel like nothing else seems to work out. You go back to Allah. Do not find it in the entertainment or sort of thing. It never worked.
There is a verse in a Quran that struck deep to my heart. Thanks to the one who shared the picture on Instagram. It is from Surah Yunus verse 12
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I feel like this verse is directed to me. I will try to keep reminding myself after this. In sha Allah. Aamiin.
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Dah lama dah ajak tak post apa apa dalam blog ini
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